1.25.2010

Moving past the fear

Sometimes I don't try new things because I'm afraid of failing. I build it up in my mind to something huge - something I can't possibly accomplish. I expect to fail, and instead of believing in myself I think about all the things that could go wrong. There's a list in my head of everything I don't know about this particular project. That list needs to be replaced with a list of the things I DO know.

I bought a bunch of canvases yesterday. I even have a project in mind. I have all the supplies. I have the time. The girl is in school and the puppy is sleeping. Yet here I sit.

I know exactly what's holding me back from starting this particular project. I don't know how to create an interesting background with paint. I'm not a painter. Just writing that makes me annoyed with myself. Who cares?! Who's even going to see what I make? I don't have to show it to anyone. I could even throw it away if I don't like it.

Writing this post did just what I'd hoped it would do - it made me want to get up off the couch and start that project. Maybe I'll even post the results.

6 comments:

sqrl said...

I totally understand. I feel this way at times also. It's good that you just got up and went for it. Your right no one has to see it if you don't want them to. Good for you!

tinarothfuss said...

good for you lisa!

Karen said...

I often feel the very same way, Lisa. Starting is the hardest part. Once you get the beginning in the past, your work drives you to keep going. It's SO exciting to get past that bump in the beginning.

D'Arcy said...

It will be beautiful...all of your work is!

paula :: plays with mud said...

I know EXACTLY what you mean. And I needed to read this tonight - thanks!

Anonymous said...

Go and do your best!
Having fun while doing it is what counts :)